We are almost at the end of May and still no sign of a real end to lockdown. DS1 is still off work, he's still got a job and is being paid but heaven only knows when he'll be back....I've given up trying to guess. He struggles being stuck at home all the time and not able to meet any of his friends or go out to the cinema...you know all the normal stuff people do. He seems okay at the moment but has had some bad days.
DS2 is getting very anxious and veres between wanting to meet his friends in the park and refusing to go back to work when it reopens because he's so scared. Poor kid, he struggles to understand and the uncertainty is hard for him....and the rest of us to he fair.
DD is still suffering from the aftermath of what we assume was Covid-19. She is pretty much trapped in her room and goes out to take photos occasionally and then retreats to her bed. She isn't well at all and she is finding all of this emotionally really hard. Life is hard for her at the best of times and having a full house all the time isn't good.
DM is still in hospital, DF has been trying to get her home again .... she is NOT happy about being trapped in hospital and who can blame her. The main problem is that it now seems DM is totally incontinent and DF is very clear that he can't cope with that, and who can blame him. Having all this happen while lockdown is still ongoing makes it all harder of course as no one can actually speak to staff in the hospital so getting information is not easy.
DF is now looking at getting DM moved to either the local hospital as a stop gap or moving her straight into a local nursing home. Don't envy him that conversation!!! It's a Bank Holiday today which further complicates everything but hopefully DF can get things sorted so DM can get out of hospital and somewhere more appropriate. Given how quickly she seems to have deteriorated she may well not last too much longer. Having said that I've been expecting her imminent death for years.
Just spoke to DF and it looks as though she may get moved to a small hospital very close to their house, so DF can cheap out on not paying for a nursing home. DF is obviously not keen on paying out for DM! Well if she gets home eventually she will be miserable in familiar surroundings and DF can ignore her as much as he usually does. Good luck to DF handling it all! Fingers crossed she dies soon, for all our sakes....even hers.
I haven't spoken to DF as much in years!! Not a habit I intend keeping thats for sure. I have spoken to DM most days she's been in hospital and she is getting more confused and her filters are even less evident than normal, non of it's new behaviour but it's becoming more visible. She is in really poor health but could easily linger for another 20 years.
DP has been less hard work than I pictured but lockdown would still be soooo much easier if he wan't here. He gets vile and grumpy if anyone speaks when he was planning on pontificating...even if the other person/people were already speaking and he was going to butt in. He is going to carry on WFH until September at least, oh what fun.In an ideal world he could also get this virus and end up in hospital giving us all some peace and quiet, or just piss off into the sunset ....alone or with another woman I really don't care. Not that it's going to happen.
Still as lockdown carries on ....for ever.... it could be worse, not that I won't be overjoyed for it to all end and to get the house back to just DD and I!
Monday 25 May 2020
Friday 8 May 2020
Still in lockdown
Today is the 75th Anniversary of VE Day and should have had a full list of commemoration events. Instead we are still in lockdown for Covid-19. Thinking about wars, as I tend to do on these big anniversaries I am forever grateful that I have lived in a period where none of my children had to go and risk life and limb to fight. DS1 in particular would have struggled in WW1, to the point I seriously doubt he'd have survived. Just so many triggers for him, if I believed in reincarnation....and I really want to.... I would say he lived through the War and that's why he reacts so intensely to facets of life in the trenches. DS2 would not have lasted 5 minutes as a soldier in either War...he just doesn't understand enough to keep himself safe. In WW2 he could have worked on the land, which he'd have coped with but he needs so much looking after! I can see DS1 as as bomber pilot, he really likes Lancaster Bombers, so his life expectancy would have been measured in months. DD would have worked in something front line and dangerous because that's who she is...she would have been my only hope of a child who survived. As I say I am grateful all the time for being lucky enough not to have to watch my children go to fight.
On a different topic I got a phone call from DF last might and DM has been sent to hospital. Nothing to do with the pandemic, she is just getting increasingly old and frail. All those years of smoking are catching up with her with a vengeous! Apparently she is not managing to get to the toilet, lack of energy to walk according to DF. So pleased we are in lockdown so I don't have to feel guilty about not visiting. It was interesting how happy he was to chat on the phone, both last night and again today, he could also hear better without DM being around. I spoke to her briefly on her mobile but she had no interest in speaking, not ill just keener on speaking to DF to complain about him not sorting stuff...she really is a poisonous old woman. I have checked and don't have a skirt for a funeral but I'm sure I can sort something if the best happens. Hopefully soon while restrictions on funerals are still in place, that way it can be a brief affair and I don't have to pretend to care even minimally.
Lockdown looks as though it will still be in force at least until the end of June...I am thoroughly bored with the whole thing. It just makes life tedious and worst of all there is just no quiet in the house. With DP, DS1 and DS2 all off work and with no sports or gym to go to they are hanging around ALL the time! They just make so much noise and fill the house up. Luckily tips have finally reopened, though you now need to book a slot to go, anyway I have booked what may well have been the very first slot at the nearest tip and DP and DS2 will go on Monday to get rid of the mountain of cardboard and wood we have stacked up ready to go. Assuming the tip calms down and we can get to it more easily we can then start sorting DS2's room. He wants it reorganized which will mean a lot of old furniture taking to the tip and new units put in place.
On a different topic I got a phone call from DF last might and DM has been sent to hospital. Nothing to do with the pandemic, she is just getting increasingly old and frail. All those years of smoking are catching up with her with a vengeous! Apparently she is not managing to get to the toilet, lack of energy to walk according to DF. So pleased we are in lockdown so I don't have to feel guilty about not visiting. It was interesting how happy he was to chat on the phone, both last night and again today, he could also hear better without DM being around. I spoke to her briefly on her mobile but she had no interest in speaking, not ill just keener on speaking to DF to complain about him not sorting stuff...she really is a poisonous old woman. I have checked and don't have a skirt for a funeral but I'm sure I can sort something if the best happens. Hopefully soon while restrictions on funerals are still in place, that way it can be a brief affair and I don't have to pretend to care even minimally.
Lockdown looks as though it will still be in force at least until the end of June...I am thoroughly bored with the whole thing. It just makes life tedious and worst of all there is just no quiet in the house. With DP, DS1 and DS2 all off work and with no sports or gym to go to they are hanging around ALL the time! They just make so much noise and fill the house up. Luckily tips have finally reopened, though you now need to book a slot to go, anyway I have booked what may well have been the very first slot at the nearest tip and DP and DS2 will go on Monday to get rid of the mountain of cardboard and wood we have stacked up ready to go. Assuming the tip calms down and we can get to it more easily we can then start sorting DS2's room. He wants it reorganized which will mean a lot of old furniture taking to the tip and new units put in place.
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