Saturday 13 May 2017

Life goes on.

Well its already May and DS2 will soon be 19, still no signs of growing up but I live in hope. He is being extremely hard work at the moment, lots of aggression towards DD and lots of stupid behaviour towards girls. One girl in particular, who has zero self esteem so will put up with any kind of controlling behaviour from DS2 as the price of keeping him as her 'boyfriend'. Not healthy for either of them, in the end I have just had to cut off all contact outside college between them as neither of them would listen to anything I said about appropriate behaviour. He is seeing a psychologist who will, fingers crossed, help him get a handle on some of his behaviour.

DS1 is in the last couple of weeks of his course and still has masses of work to do...he was warned and I have offered to help repeatedly but he is an idle toe rag. He won't get the class of degree he wants and to be honest he doesn't deserve it. He just isn't prepared to do the work...I'm still hopeful he'll get a job of some sort in the near future because I don't want him back in Leeds long term. I am looking forward to him being around over the summer and have a massive list of jobs I need doing...basically  I want the entire house decorating while I still have him around, but I really don't want him still living here by the end of the year. I suppose I shouldn't expect him to be more proactive...I was utterly lazy at his age and did minimal work but its so annoying to see.

DD is starting to do embroidery...after spending a HUGE amount of money on card making supplies and then water colour equipment I do sometimes get a little overwhelmed when she takes up a new hobby...they are all so expensive. But I can see why she finds embroidery so much easier then either card making or water colour. For a start she needs less support as she can have everything she needs easily to hand and so she doesn't need anyone around to pass her stuff. Also its not as tiring to do as its lighter. Mostly though I'm pleased she can still find activities that make her day easier.

DD is continuing to deteriorate and has been very emotionally fragile this year which is hard to live with. She has started to control her eating which is good as she topped the scales at 20 stone...not good for her at all. The weight is not coming off easily but any reduction is good and being a bit more in control seems to be helping her emotional state. Its also reducing her pulse rate quite markedly which is odd but hopefully a good sign.

I had stomach 'flu which meant I was out of action for 2-3 days and limited ability to do stuff for another day or so. DD was a star and made sure DS2 was fed and looked after him while I was out of action. DP had to take a couple of days off work as DS2 needed to be taken to two appointments but that's all he did...he really is beyond useless. I was throwing up blood...not a good sign and he was too self absorbed and selfish to take me to A&E or even pretend to care. The only support I got was from DD, who pushed herself way too hard but had no choice, and DS2 who was quite scared the first day but then got bored. I got up and did stuff...like laundry...from the second day as no one else was going to do anything and it needed doing. If I had any emotions left for DP I would despise him but he is too insignificant in my life for me to have any emotions for him at all.

DB was going to see my parents after Easter...DM was on the phone telling me all about it. I am supposed to care according to her script. Anyway she finally got round to phoning me yesterday to tell me all about it...I am fully aware I was supposed to phone her panting for an update but honestly I couldn't give a damn and  the phones work just fine both ways. So I waited her out and she cracked first and phoned me. She was obviously not happy that DB and DF had spoken to each other WITHOUT HER THERE...how dare they! Anyway it looks as though DB is packing in his teaching job and will presumably look for something else. Luckily his wife works so he won't starve. Don't know what it is about the boys/males in my family but they are all lazy and moderately pathetic. I keep telling myself its not my responsibility to sort any of it out...not even DS1.

There is going to be a General Election on 8th June and with my sterling reputation as a political expert I will make another prediction...I think the Conservatives will win...that's a no brainer, even Labour think the Conservatives will win...but I don't think Labour will loose as many seats as is predicted. Basically I think Labour seats are mostly such rotten boroughs that a pig in a red rosette could stand and people would vote for it. Come to think of it a choice between a pig and most Labour MPs and I'd vote for the pig!

Given my history predicting election results...a 100% failure rate...I am now expecting Labour to win! Hopefully not as Corbyn is unmitigated disaster, you just need to look at the people who are in his Cabinet to know he is a complete second, or even third rater!