Saturday 26 February 2022

We finally have covid in the house!

 After nearly 2 years of Covid and all the associated lockdowns and drama we finally have a Covid case at home. DS2 has been suffering...dying!...with a minor cold for a few days and then on Friday decided to take a test...mostly because he was bored. He tested positive...poor kid is panicking, he has seen all the horror stories the media has been putting out to make the pandemic as dramatic as possible. He believes them all and is convinced he is desperately ill. Fortunately he has 3 vaccines and is not poorly really...he has a cold and is feeling a bit grim, but hardly dying. He doesn't even have a temperature!

No one else has tested positive yet, though I do have a cold...time will tell. Lateral flow tests can only be ordered every 3 days now rather than every 24 hours but I have got DD and DS1 ordering packs so we won't run out. Free tests are being phased out on the grounds that the pandemic is virtually over in Britain... I do kind of agree but it's still annoying that the tests are harder to get the only time we've needed lots. Mostly it's just been DS1 taking regular tests for  work and DS2 taking a test whenever he gets panicky. 

All of this seems very minor stuff with the stuff in the news about Russia invading Ukraine...WW3 could be on the horizon. I have no doubt that somewhere in Whitehall there is a group of civil servants trying to update the 'Protect and Survive' leaflets we all got sent in the 1980's. Predictably its all adding to DD's anxiety...poor kid is really not at all well at the moment. The stress is not doing good things to her.

I spoke to DF on the phone expecting he would have been following the news...he used to be very aware of what was happening and stay informed about the world. His world is shrinking and all he could talk about was money and not being able to plan a walk with his sister because her house had suffered some flooding. It's not a good sign when someone's world gets so small and self absorbed...it happened with DM and it's now happened with DF... so I can now look forward to him having health dramas... hope he gets some support sorted 'cause I'm not in a position to do anything, even if I wanted to!  

Update: in spite of negative lateral flow tests for both DS1 and I we both tested positive for Covid with a PCR test as did DP. DD got a PCR test in the post and I imagine she will also test positive. I have to say Covid sucks... it's absolutely exhausting and just makes you feel like the world's shittiest cold. If this is it with 3 vaccines I'm not surprised so many died in the first wave with no treatment and a stronger version! Obviously DP is the most ill...well he thinks he is and he certainly does f*ck all in the way of sorting stuff at home...like ordering food, doing laundry, feeding cats, feeding people...you know the stuff that needs doing to keep us all alive and functional! 

After a 3-4 days of feeling shitty I'm not too bad...but struggled to rest no matter how crap I felt...yes I am being pathetic a whingy, but it's the payback for being a mum.

DF has phoned a couple of times...one time he spoke to DP who apparently told him how poorly he (DP) was...never mind I was in bed and everyone else was also ill!! The man is a self absorbed wanker... DF is pretty self absorbed too and his conversation when I spoke to him was about his walks and stuff. 

Monday 14 February 2022

Looks like Covid may be over for now

 The latest variant of Covid has proved to be extremely contagious but mild...a good combination. Fortunately non of us caught it...though DS1 wouldn't have objected to a few days off work. By the end of this month it looks as though all restrictions will be over and no more self isolation for Covid infections...so you're off work if you're actually poorly but not if you are asymptomatic which makes sense to me. DD is less happy about it...she has health anxiety, which makes total sense and is angry that clinically vulnerable people like her are not being prioritized. There is no way anyone can protect everyone from Covid... anyone who wants can have 3 jabs against the virus...and lots of publicity encouraging people to get them (but still just over 90% have had the first vaccine never mind the rest). Covid is going to be around a long time, possibly forever, and we have to learn to live with it, not good if you have health issues like DD but that is life.

DP got a stomach bug and was ill enough for a couple of days...nowhere near as ill as he makes out but his over acting scared DS2 who is constantly worried about getting the bug...DP does love the drama and likes to make out he he so heroic. I would seriously love to know how he sees himself and the world... not sure how much I would recognise. I think he sees himself as doing far more in the house than he does...he had a questionnaire to fill in from the NHS and it asked how many hours caring he did a week, he wanted to know how many hours to put down for caring for DD!!! The honest answer would have been 0 but I imagine he put down full time...he really does seem to think he does everything and that the whole family would fall apart if he wasn't here doing all the work. Totally delusional!

DD has a post that went mildly viral and got over 8M views which was slightly surreal ...unfortunately it doesn't help any of her other posts which barely get seen at all due to Instagram's  weird algorithm. We went out to Burton Agnes to take photos in the wood which are carpeted with snowdrops...very beautiful and very cold...the photo was lovely but has been seen by barely anyone which is hard for DD. DF turned up to meet friends there just as we were ready to leave...he had mentioned going but I was sure he'd said another day...annoying but fortunately he didn't say anything fatphobic to DD, he is obsessed with peoples weight...he even asked after the cats weight!

DS1 is seriously talking about starting working to getting a driving license, he really does need his own transport but I'll believe it when I see it. He is also weighing up just renting so he can move out rather than hanging on here in the hopes of buying. He is finding being here hard with DP and DS2 ...and also DD some days... I think he would also like to start dating and that's super hard if you live in your parents house.

Other than that life is fairly quiet...which I like. DF seems to be coping just fine without DM, I miss her not at all which is hardly surprising given how little she added to my life for far too many years. I don't hear from DB at all but that's not new and isn't going to change no matter how much DF fantasises about us as a loving close family.