Another heatwave

 We’ve already had two spells of over hot weather… fortunately neither being prolonged but we are on the verge of another spell of hot weather with no end in sight, definitely going to be weeks and could, in theory, last till the end of summer. Certainly we are already suffering from lack of rain. Not my idea of fun. The last spate of heat coincided with me having the latest variant of Covid…which was not fun, the only plus was that DD didn’t get it…and DP was away for it! He was back as I was ill and was fucking useless! He was talking about what a narcissist his mum is…she is actually properly diagnosed as such…but everything he complained about is stuff he does…such as always thinking she’s right and the most intelligent person in the room! He has no ability to self reflect, it’s embarrassing.

Hopefully the heat will ease off sufficiently at night so we can get some sleep…I’m not counting on it. The weather is totally fucked, I remember when we had a day forecast to be 25C which would be sooo hot we would struggle to cope so went to Scarborough for the day…that’s not even that hot anymore. Climate change is fucking things up all over the world…perfect time to have a bunch of self serving morons in power … pretty much all leaders no matter what country are as bad as each other. America has Trump who kind of leads the way but he’s not alone. Starmer is pushing through legislation to take funding away from disabled people because he’s a eugenicist knob! Fascism is everywhere and no one seems to be fighting it…when people said what was being done in Gaza would come for all us they were so very right. 

It’s not all doom and gloom at home…Robyn’s bathroom is all finished and is beautiful. We are getting the kitchen floor replaced as I type and we will be getting Aidan’s shower room redone sometime this year. All hard wok to live with and disruptive but make such a difference.

DP has been away a lot this summer which has made life so much easier … that seems to be coming to end but I’m sure he’ll be away again at some stage. He does take over so much of the house when he’s at home…manspreading writ large…he really does feel that he is the main character and we are all supporting actors…if not NPCs! 

DS1 is talking about sorting a mortgage offer so he can properly look for a house…he’s more than ready to move out…he just needs a big enough mortgage that he can get somewhere that’s not a pile of shit.

DS2 is still convinced he’s going to get his driving license at some stage and actually be allowed on the roads…he is so delusional.

DD is continuing to struggle with their health…they have effectively given up on social media posting..they don’t have the energy. They are finding life very hard…especially as their cat Ruthie looks like she is possibly getting closer to the rainbow bridge…as there is no way we could get a new cat. Freddie wouldn’t cope, even if DD had the energy to manage a new cat.

The year isn't getting any better

 Well America is getting more insane as Trump is acting as though he's a Medieval King anointed by God! He's so insane at Easter he was suggesting he's Jesus... not a sane or suitable person to be President that's for sure. At least in his first term he had at least some 'grown ups' around him to moderate his worst impulses. This time he's surrounded himself with total bottom feeders and sycophants, each is worse than the last. The result is a measles and whooping cough outbreak that's just going to keep getting worse as vaccines are increasingly difficult to obtain. All that is before the inevitable outbreak of bird flu that's been on the horizon for at least 2 years... it might hit this winter or we might dodge it again...but it's coming and I really don't trust this bunch of losers to manage the problems of dealing with a major flu season never mind an epidemic!

The tariffs Trump is so enamoured of  are pushing the world into a recession...just what we need! Seriously doubt he has any understanding of how tariffs work and he really doesn't care the damage they will cause. If the damage was restricted to America it would be one thing but it will affect us all. Fun times. 

The situation in Gaza is beyond all words...I'm surprised there is anyone left alive it's that horrific. I've become so numb to the whole situation I've basically shut down. Really not helpful but my brain only has so much capacity for the madness of the world.

DD is continuing to deteriorate...they have all these plans for what they want to do but can realistically do very little. They have also put on a significant amount of weight and are finding it impossible to shift...their body is really making life hard for them. At the beginning of the year they has a major breakdown over their weight and the fact non of their clothes fit. We went through all their clothes and bought a whole load of new clothes..and masses of new make-up...I can't realistically see any of the stuff being used. They can barely get to the park and back without a major break down. It's hard dealing with the emotional support they need...but it's much harder living/existing in their life. They have constant pain and an ever widening pool of symptoms, non of them fun!

DS1 is back in the swing of things at work and is managing to get to the gym 2-3 times a week after work which is great. Now he just needs to actually sort speaking to a mortgage advisor and seeing what kind of mortgage he can manage and then actually start looking at houses...I can totally see why he's not rushing to start the process... he's done enough work on this house to know how brutally hard it will be to get anything he can afford into a liveable state.

DS2 is still making his life hard work but he's enjoying himself which is important.  DF is also enjoying his life ...going out walking and a busy social life. DP and I went over on Good Friday and its apparent that his lady friend is starting to loose the plot...she had to reminded more than once what she'd ordered for lunch and DF was reminding her where they were going on holiday and when. Hopefully its slow decline and they can still keep having fun for a few more years.

DP is a annoying and boring as he has been for way too many years. I no longer have any memory of him being fun or someone I'd choose to talk to with. Now he only want to monologue and if I actually say anything...even its its just agreement...he huffs and pouts and goes silent ...presumably punishing me for daring to speak...if he only knew jus how little I care! The only reason he's still here is money...I just can't manage on my own...not with 3, expensive, dependents...so he gets to stay. I can usually get a read on peoples emotional state...not saying I'm accurate but I get some feedback from most people. I get absolutely nothing from him... no idea why, but it's odd. Luckily this summer he's away for 2 weeks...he's in London a week and then straight off to France for his mothers 90th...can't wait.

Just when you think life can't get any harder

 I haven't written anything for ages...its hard to know what to say. Trump is now President again and its even worse than the most apocalyptic imaginings of what he's be like...most of us just assumed it would be Trump 2.0 but possibly less amateur hour. Well this time round he has best new buddy Musk who is getting a bunch of incels to go into Government Departments and go into the computer systems and cut off the money. Really pleased I'm not in USA...it must be incredibly scary for so many people. The news is being flooded with all kinds of random shit...Trump is going to buy Gaza and expel the remaining Palestinians and build a sea front resort there...he's going to invade Canada...he's going to buy Greenland ...and on and on. There are also moves to strip voting rights from anyone whose I.D. name doesn't match their birth certificate...i.e. married women. There has been a lot of chatter in the 'Christian' right for many years about women not having the vote and men having a 'family' vote, they also want to take away no fault divorce and basically remove the ability of women to escape marriages that aren't working. The next few years will not be easy.

While the news is almost uniformly depressing...Palestine, Sudan, Congo...the list goes on...climate change...we have been doing okay. We did finally get the roof actually sorted. The original roofer was a total shit and had done piss all work which meant the original leak was still there. I found another roofer who came out on Xmas Eve to look at the roof and give us a quote...he also gave me all the gossip about the original roofer and looks like when we'd used him before and he'd been ok it had been his Dad in charge. Explains a lot. Anyway they did the work, even though it was super cold and icy when they came...on the day I'd been given! I do now trust the roof is secure. Anyway Dad was very generous and gave a very generous donation towards the roof...not needed DP cashed in a pension to pay for the work...but it did mean we had enough to get a quote for the bathroom. We have been saving to redo the bathroom for a while...the grout is cracking and water will be getting behind the tiles. The sink is chipped and DD would really like a bidet toilet...on bad pain days (virtually every day at this point) bending round after using the loo can be hard. 

Anyway we are getting the new bathroom next month...the couple of weeks while the work is being done will not be fun but it should be totally worth it. We are using the same people who did the kitchen so we know the work will be excellent. Really looking forward to it all being finished.

DD is continuing to flair pretty much all the time...they tend to be in bed ready for sleep before 6pm every day and napping on and off all day. DS1 has had an operation for carpel tunnel on his left hand which meant he was off work for a month,,, he got very bored as he couldn't do much when his hand was still bandaged and the weather was too cold and wet to do much even when his hand was more useable. He is really started looking at what mortgage he might be able to get and what he might be able to afford. Hopefully he can get himself moved out in a year or so.

DS2 keeps having fits of insisting he's going to learn to drive...never going to happen... it doesn't help that DP encourages him in this delusion. But then DP has always has a weird view of who DS2 is...I think he views DS2 as his 'mini me'...okay I can see the similarities, both have limited emotional intelligence, both heavily self absorbed and narcissistic and both see the world very much as they would choose it to be... and neither as bright as they pretend! But even so DP is able to function independently and DS2 very much can't which is the fundamental difference. 

DP is currently on his way back from Hong Kong...we all enjoyed him being away for a week! Its so much easier in the house when he's away...tidier for sure and just less stress and ...I'm wanting to type aggression which suggests he's physically violent which he's not but he's in a permanent bad mood and does like to use his temper as a weapon, doesn't work so well now we all ignore him and I have absolutely no emotional connection at all. Anyway he'll be back again tomorrow but we have March to look forward to when he should be away for 3 out of 4 weeks!

I've barely spoken to DF recently...when I've tried phoning him he's been busy and VERY keen to rush me off the phone...I'm just waiting for him to phone me. He's obviously living his best life which is all that matters.

Hopefully the year has less dramatic news than we've seen so far...I'm more than happy for boredom! For ourselves I'm just wanting DD to be in less pain...it would be good if DS1 manages to get himself onto the housing ladder and move out. DS2 just needs to calm down and be less of an arse.

Update: well DP was as boring and hard work as I expected when he got back...obviously exhausted, he'd had a really hard journey back with planes being delayed and it took significantly longer than expected. But even with that he's been a bit of an arse...I'm guessing he was hoping for a more adoring audience who were excited to have him back. Instead he got total indifference from pretty much all of us. Well you do reap what you sow! 

DS1 went back to work and found it incredibly hard, he's' come back from work shell shocked and beyond exhausted and his legs are causing so much pain he's struggling to walk up the stairs to his room. Not good at all.